Sorry (once again!) for the lack of postage on this hunk of junk I call a blog!
Its my day off, so I thought I'd better write something.
Anyhoo, J9 had her scan yesterday and got the 'all clear', which I'm told is good.
I does mean she doesnt have to have an operation, and also she should start feeling better now.
Thanks to you for all your kind words and prayers.
Ive kind of been dealing with it in a very inwardly 'zen master' style, which has been working well. But (thers always a "but"!), last week I felt i needed to get some stuff off my chest, so I wrote a song. I'm not sure if you'll ever hear it performed (cuz I physically cant get thru all of it without chocking up!), but I felt I should post it on here for you guys to read, then it wouldnt be a total waste.
Here goes . . . .
Someday
I saw your picture for the first time,
And the last time, well what am I to do?
Everytime I see that look in her eye,
or her smile, it reminds me of you.
We made plans for moving house,
a dream nursery, that you will never see.
She was gonna make a wonderful mom,
but now somethings gone, I feel so incomplete.
I pray to God and ask Him "why us?",
"why me?", "why'd He take you away from me?".
The shadow proves the sunshine,
thats what He said, what He said to me.
Its in these times that I need Christ,
His sacrifice, I fall down at His feet.
And now there's one more angel in heaven,
and I can't wait, 'till we finally meet.
Even though I never got to hear you speak
And even though I never got to hold your hand
Somehow I know, somehow I understand
That I will, someday.
Love you x
